刘晓箫[重庆]诗四首【中英对照，林巧儿 译】
刘晓箫[重庆]
原罪（外三首）
上帝玩忽职守
造我的时候 打了迷糊眼
身材裁短了几十公分
眼睛安斜了一只
鼻梁压扁了 缺牙漏齿
我从不看水中的倒影
不照墙上的镜子
不在万花丛中对相机微笑
我倒立行走 背光而飞
掩饰恶一样掩饰丑
上帝身兼数职 慌乱中
在胸膛错放一根兽骨
所以 我总想打劫富贵
色诱母物 我拒绝认罪
兽性是上帝给的
我来得太仓促了 人间的冷
上帝是始料不及的
我必须在物竞天择的漩涡上
阴险的蛰伏 把人皮
合法的还给上帝
把兽性 体面的保留下来
姿势
我用了很长的时间
来思考 写作时
应该保持一种什么姿势
我不喜欢 阳光从左手方进来
照见被打败时划下的刀疤
更不喜欢 灯光从头顶直射
让我干瘪的下颔
像轻薄的匕首 没有准心
刺向毫无痛觉的空处
看见春风中浩荡的衣裙
总想去理顺皱褶
看见杯盘间蠕动的腮帮
总想去弹落饭粒
看见路边被偷袭的母狗
我一边视而不见
一边暗自咬牙 为公狗
失败的姿势懊恼不已
也常常 为自己
吠声
一团温软的尤物抱在怀里
模糊 肉感 下沉
渐次开放 是洁白的胴体
我就要渐入佳境了
一阵狗的狂吠 把我吵醒
我咬牙切齿想大声呵斥
又怕吵醒别人
我怒目圆睁 什么也看不见
摸到了嘴角的梦口水
身边的女人 正鼾声均匀
做一个男人好难
梦里偷情 也被狗发现
我愤懑至极的坐起来
跟着狗一起狂吠
管他妈的 这个年代
要不清静大家都不清静
身边的女人 正鼾声均匀
沉默与啰嗦
——致未来的入殓师
给我关严眼睑
给我合拢嘴唇
给我鞠躬请安
给我穿衣戴帽
给我画眉描红
给我剪甲修须
给我念咒赎恶
给我焚香净身
姓什名谁是男是女
威猛瘦弱芳龄几何
一切不得而知
亲密接触又无话可说
近在咫尺又遥不可及
你把我的尊严和体面
连同没落的爱恨情仇
送得最高最远
我要提前50年
在肉体变成鬼之前
对你多说几句人话
Liu Xiao-xiao [Chongqing]
Original Sin (and other three poems)
God didn’t his duty well
When he was making me, he got a daze in his eyes
So my body figure became several tens of centimeters shorter
One eye became tilted
Flattened bridge of my noses, some teeth missed
I have never looked at reflections in the water
or the mirror on a wall
or smiled at the camera among the flowers
I walk upside down and fly with my back to the light.
concealing evil as concealing my ugliness
God held multiple positions and was in a state of panic
misplaced a beast bone in my chest
So I always want to rob wealth and prosperity
I refuse to plead guilty when I lure the female object
My animal nature was given by God
I came too hastily, the God could not foresee the coldness in the world
I must be instinctively in the whirlpool of competition and natural selection
I will give back my human skin to the god legitimately
and preserve the animal nature decently
Posture
When I spend a long time
thinking and writing
What posture should be maintained？
I don’t like sunlight coming in from the left side
obviously uncovering the scar left by me when I was defeated
I don’t like the light shining directly from above even more
It can make my withered chin
like a light and thin dagger without accuracy
piercing into a painless void
Seeing the magnificent dresses in the spring breeze
I always want to straighten out wrinkles
Seeing the wriggling cheeks between cups and plates
I always want to bounce off rice grains
Seeing a mother dog being ambushed on the roadside
I turn a blind eye on that case
While I secretly grit my teeth for the failed posture
of the male dog
as well as for myself often
Barking
A warm and delicate creature was held in my arms
blurred, fleshy, sinking
gradually opening up,it was a very white body
I was about to enter the best state
A burst of dog barking woke me up
I gritted my teeth and wanted to scold that loudly
Afraid of waking others up
My angry eyes widened and I couldn’t see anything
I had touched my saliva from the dreaming
The woman next to me was snoring evenly
It’s so difficult to be a man
Having an extramarital affair in my dream, I was also caught by a dog
I sat up in extreme anger
barking along with the dog
Don’t need to pay any attention to the society
If it needs no quietness, then everyone is not quiet
The woman next to me is snoring evenly
Silence and Wordiness
—to the future undertaker
Close my eyelids
Close my lips for me
Bow to me and pay me respects.
Dress me and put on a hat
Draw my eyebrows and paint me red.
Give me a manicure and shaving.
Give me a spell to atone for my sins.
Burn incense for me and clean my body.
What’s your family name and last name? are you a man or a woman?
Are you strong or weak ,how old are you?
Everything is unknown, for him
Close contact and nothing to say.
Close at hand and out of reach.
You put and send my dignity, decency
and the declining love and hate.
to the highest and farthest
I want to say a few more words to you
50 years in advance
before my body becomes a ghost
(Tr. Lina moon；林巧儿 译)
诗人小传
刘晓箫，生于60年代初，四川自贡富顺人，中学毕业，自修西师汉语言文学专业。1990年前务农、兼中小学代课、乡文化站工作。92年来渝，做过卖报、卖菜、家教、力夫（棒棒）、餐饮管理、采编、包装等工作。1998年创办重庆棒棒军服务有限公司任总经理至今。打工、写作、创业励志事迹被全国数百家报刊、电台、电视台、中央电视台、港澳台、美、日、英、法、德、意、韩等国际媒体追踪报道。被团中央、公安部、司法部、建设部、妇联、国家工商总局等八部门联合评选为“中国第二届优秀外来务工青年”。
2015年在渝创建重庆诗刊联盟任轮值主席，创办《广场诗刊》任总编。自80年代起有小说、散文、诗歌等发国内外期刋、选本、网媒并获奖。2012年筹建重庆富顺县商会任常务副会长，2018年筹建重庆自贡市商会任常务副会长兼秘书长。
Biography of the poet
Liu Xiao-xiao, born in Fushun, Zigong, Sichuan in the early 1960s, graduated from middle school and finished self-study Chinese language and literature at the Western Normal University. Before 1990, he worked as a farmer, a substitute in primary and secondary schools, and a rural cultural station. He came to Chongqing in 1992, and worked as a newspaper seller, vegetable seller, tutor, lifer (great), catering management, editing and packaging. In 1998, he founded Chongqing Bangbang Team Service Co., Ltd. as the general manager. His inspirational deeds of working, writing and starting a business have been tracked and reported by hundreds of newspapers, radio stations, TV stations from CCTV, Hong Kong, Macao, Taiwan, the United States, Japan, Britain, France, Germany, Italy, South Korea and other international media. He was jointly selected by the Central Committee of the Communist Youth League, the Ministry of Public Security, the Ministry of Justice, the Ministry of Construction, the Women’s Federation and the State Administration for Industry and Commerce as “The Second Outstanding Migrant Youth in China”.
In 2015, he founded Chongqing Poetry Magazine Alliance, as the rotating chairman, and founded Square Poetry Magazine, as the editor-in-chief. Since the 1980s, some of his novels, essays and poems have been published in domestic and international issues, selected books and online media, and won prizes. In 2012, he planned and built a chamber of commerce of Chongqing Fushun Chamber of Commerce, as the executive vice president, and in 2018, he planned and built Chongqing Zigong Chamber of Commerce ,as the executive vice president and secretary
译者简介
林巧儿，女诗人、词人、翻译家。
About the translator
Lina moon, a Chinese poetess and translator.